What’s this? I dated a cam girl? I’m a simp? I’m a cuck!?
No, just dumb. Real quick for international readers. A simp is a man who follows the words of a woman to a fault and does whatever she wants. A cuck is a man who lets another man have sex with his girlfriend/wife. A cam girl is a girl who exposes herself online for money. Alright, good? Let’s go!
So, how did I get into this situation? Why am I talking about it now? Why does it matter? In reverse order: It matters because it is a very odd and interesting life the girls have chosen. Many do not understand the difficulties these women go through and many women do not understand the difficulties that will happen. Why now? Half the Idubbz stuff, a YouTuber who is in this situation, and half just wanting to tell a story of my life no one knows. How did this happen? Well, let’s begin.
I had just broken up with my fiance. I was in my early 20s. I was fat, low self esteem, wanted to die, and thought no one would ever love me much less find me attractive. I started to visit cam girl sites to just feel that need of girls liking me. The lie that they enjoyed my company. Oddly enough after a while a few models did ask me out and some gave me their personal numbers without me paying them or anything. This all went no where due to this story. It was a very weird time of my life, if I must say so. There’s even one who added me on STEAM and we’d play together and I was helping her file the visa paperwork to leave Russia and she just vanished. Her friends have no idea where she went either.
So, I met a girl. We hit it off and start to date. Eventually she reveals she is a cam girl to me, only because she just lost her job. Okay, I’m pretty desperate at this point so I’m taking what I can get. Paranoid though I watch a few of her streams. They’re pretty tame by comparison of others. Things go on. She’s looking for work, can’t find any that pays anywhere near as well as being a cam girl full time which further adds to issues. This was also in a time where cam girls didn’t give out stuff like Snapchat, Skype, Whatsapp, and other ways to contact them. It was if you are tipping I am yours the second tips end I am not. Again, I was desperate. Well, that and a few other things changed pretty fast.
For those that don’t know cam sites go through fads. Like, for a while every site had to have a Fuck Machine, a machine that pounded a dildo at high speeds into girls and often hurt the girls. Sites had to ban these because they were liabilities. There was the pussy pump phase. This is where you’d get something to just suck on the lips of your pussy with a pump to inflate the lips. It too caused great harm to girls. Why does this matter? Well, if you don’t join in the phases your followers will leave. You will go from making 2,000 USD a day to 50 in the drop of a hat. All because you refuse to do things like fisting, anal, fuck machines, etc… This is when I started to have issues.
While I am a sexually adventurous person. I am actually tame by the more adventurous people. My rule to her was I was not comfortable with her doing things I myself wouldn’t want done to her or could harm her body. She eventually lied and hid her stream from me. Things just ramped up, constantly. Sex toys the size of my arm. Vibrators attached to her phone so the guys could control her throughout the day. The constant texting.
However, when it affected day to day life is where I drew the line. I actually made it clear I didn’t approve of her doing the GPS bluetooth vibrator that they could control at will as long as they kept paying her. I also didn’t approve of her eventually selling her Skype. If I was desperate I have no clue what these men were. All of them were controlling. For $10 a month they demanded her to talk to her at every second. She could be out with her mom and they’d threaten to remove their $10 because she was 20 minutes late replying to a Skype message. They constantly sent her dick pics. They constantly demanded special nude photos. They demanded every action of her life. This is the part of online sex work no one talks about. These guys aren’t just paying to see you naked. They’re either paying to control you or have you as their girlfriend.
Much like the Japanese idol industry, just escalated to a level you couldn’t imagine. Anytime there was anything they didn’t like money was pulled. They all knew she needed this job. They used that to constantly control her. Why not tell them to fuck off and get better customers? That ain’t how it works. Every day there are 10+ girls creating accounts to replace you. By month 1 you are old news to most. Those that have stayed are dumping hundreds of dollars into your streams and paying monthly to talk to you. You ain’t getting new customers on average. Especially once you’ve been doing it for a few months. If you don’t listen to them they will just move on and you’re now out money.
Why not just get a new job? Despite what everyone thinks this job does affect -your hiring potential. Once things started to get too crazy she tried to leave. 7 -11, Walmart, Target, GameStop, BestBuy, Domino’s, McDonalds, and many other low skilled jobs wouldn’t hire her. Much less any job that had any actual hiring requirements. This is because every job does an insane background check on you. They will search your Twitter history and if you posted something too negative you’re out. Imagine what selling videos of you masturbating does to your hiring potential.
“Why did you stay through this and then leave?” – I actually didn’t. When I found out she was hiding shows I broke up with her. Of course, by this point is when the GPS stuff was happening and the texting was starting. I was tired of her doing it. I was upset constantly and it really put a massive strain on our relationship. It got to the point to where I was too afraid to even try to have sex because I thought I couldn’t please her. When your girlfriend is shoving cucumbers in her asshole and her fist in her vagina you have to wonder if you’ll ever be enough.
So, what’s the point you ask? To open eyes on the online sex industry. A lot of women join this. Thinking it’ll be easy. Rub myself and get free money. That’s not really the case. You can tell those who think that VS those that don’t. You have to be prepared to have people clawing after you at all times. Other workers trying to tear you down. Constantly staying up with sexual fads. Then there is committing to this. Because, once that shit is online it will be almost impossible to find a job. Especially in an overcrowded job market like today’s. Then you have to understand unless you have a boyfriend who was like me, super desperate, or a cuck it’ll be hard to find an actual relationship with this line of work. You’ll be wasting your best years and, a few after you retire, over money that will be gone by the time you’re in your mid to late 20s. There are hordes of 18 year olds looking to make that quick buck. Every hour someone younger then you just signed up. You can even see the old porn star delimma of trying to find a mate after they did porn. They just did porn from the years of 18-22 and still have a hard time finding a long term boyfriend once they are 24+.
In the end, her parents found out. Told her she had to stop or they’d disown her. They helped her pay her way through college and last I heard she now has a job again. Of course, that took 6 damn years for someone to hire her. Like many cam girls I’ve met throughout the years we just drifted away, and many don’t have happy endings like her. The ones whose phone numbers I had? They’re all in my old phones. Forgotten. Those who were added to different social media? Slowly faded away. Outside of this ex there’s only two others I cared about. Nina, the Russian girl who vanished. Then there’s Green (using a code name), a girl from Kyrg who moved to Greece for a better life and was afraid of moving back home. I still get emails of job listings in Greece from when I was helping her find a job. Both are but distant memories that helped restore my faith in people. However, those are stories for another day.